Her presence helps him so much in every aspect of his life, but he's grateful to have her here tonight even though he's worried about her getting hurt. This is a part of himself that he doesn't share with many people, that he can't share with many people. It's wonderful to be able to share it with Katniss.
She's such a wonderful, seamless part of his life. Some days he's uncertain how he lived so long without her. It's good that she understands the need to respect life because there's little doubt that at some point Matt will question that necessity. It's inevitable when one does what he (they) do. Sometimes the justice system doesn't work and he has to beat up and turn in the same people all over again. Sometimes it seems pointless. Those are the times that he'll need her to remind him that everyone's life is important and he's got no right to play God and take life from anyone. How could he not be proud of her with how far she's come in the short time that he's known her.
It's good to be scared. It keeps one aware of the dangers surrounding them, of their own mortality. Besides, someone famous once said that courage isn't the absence of fear, it's being scared and doing the right thing anyway. He can almost hear that smile. Her entire being changes when she smiles like that, becomes lighter in a way that he can sense. He loves being able to get that reaction out of her. Jumping across spaces and between buildings is part of the job. His supernatural senses give him an advantage, but he won't ever take her where he knows she can't go. He can hear the way her heart beats faster, the way it skips that beat. He's poised to catch her, to help her if she falters or if he thinks she's not going to make the jump, but he also wants her to do it on her own so that she knows she can do it on her own. There's a proud sort of slight smile on his face when she does make the jump. Grace isn't important right now. That will come with practice and with confidence. He reaches out a hand to help her up, that slight smile growing as she laughs a little.
"They should be coming to check on this guy soon," he nods toward the unconscious man near the door. "I want to get him moved and us positioned to take out whomever comes looking for him."
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She's such a wonderful, seamless part of his life. Some days he's uncertain how he lived so long without her. It's good that she understands the need to respect life because there's little doubt that at some point Matt will question that necessity. It's inevitable when one does what he (they) do. Sometimes the justice system doesn't work and he has to beat up and turn in the same people all over again. Sometimes it seems pointless. Those are the times that he'll need her to remind him that everyone's life is important and he's got no right to play God and take life from anyone. How could he not be proud of her with how far she's come in the short time that he's known her.
It's good to be scared. It keeps one aware of the dangers surrounding them, of their own mortality. Besides, someone famous once said that courage isn't the absence of fear, it's being scared and doing the right thing anyway. He can almost hear that smile. Her entire being changes when she smiles like that, becomes lighter in a way that he can sense. He loves being able to get that reaction out of her. Jumping across spaces and between buildings is part of the job. His supernatural senses give him an advantage, but he won't ever take her where he knows she can't go. He can hear the way her heart beats faster, the way it skips that beat. He's poised to catch her, to help her if she falters or if he thinks she's not going to make the jump, but he also wants her to do it on her own so that she knows she can do it on her own. There's a proud sort of slight smile on his face when she does make the jump. Grace isn't important right now. That will come with practice and with confidence. He reaches out a hand to help her up, that slight smile growing as she laughs a little.
"They should be coming to check on this guy soon," he nods toward the unconscious man near the door. "I want to get him moved and us positioned to take out whomever comes looking for him."