[He smiles slightly at that and god, he wishes he could help her. The red is always the worst in your own head. He knows that. Couldon who tells him that he has more than earnt his place in SHIELD, when all he can see is lives lost by his hand.]

You are real. You feel grief and pain and guilt for what happened and those are real. But you don't have to let them be all that you feel.

You feel bad about it. That means you're still capable of building something more for yourself.