[It's the happy memories she wants to give up. The memories she doesn't know how to cope with, doesn't always think that she deserves. Memories of getting to love Peeta of her own free will rather than because she has to. Because if she didn't, Snow would kill all those she even remotely cared for.
She feels like she's in a constant battle within her own head. That, at times, a girl like her doesn't deserve to be happy. Only deserves those heartbreaking nightmares. At other times, she wants nothing more than to let go. To move on and be a new Katniss Everdeen, one who actually knows how to be happy. How to enjoy being around others.
But how to say all of that aloud? That's the hard part. And finally, she can only really mutter one word:]
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She feels like she's in a constant battle within her own head. That, at times, a girl like her doesn't deserve to be happy. Only deserves those heartbreaking nightmares. At other times, she wants nothing more than to let go. To move on and be a new Katniss Everdeen, one who actually knows how to be happy. How to enjoy being around others.
But how to say all of that aloud? That's the hard part. And finally, she can only really mutter one word:]
Sometimes.