[ There are weak moments where Marita thinks that it would be easier for her to forget those two years; where she wonders what sort of person she would be if it had not happened to her, but she knows — despite being a pawn — that it was the only way to help Mulder. It still haunts her at every corner, fueling her with paranoia and skepticism. ]

The grief of loss never entirely leaves a person, but... in my experience, while moving forward may seem impossible at first, it is much better than forgetting it entirely.

I cannot guarantee that either you will return home or they will return here, but experiences are a way of shaping a person. Would you really be willing to sacrifice your own memory to forget?