You regret what you've done. You do not look forward to having to do it again in the future. You wish to forget, but find yourself unable to do so. You are a huntress, yes, but not an assassin. You fought because you must, and one day may have to again.

[It's a strange thing to be glad for, he knows. Especially when it's left her so-miserable and conflicted. He could walk her through ways of forgetting, ways of rationalizing- train her to stop feeling so guilty, teach her not to feel regret.

And that would in some subtle way destroy the girl he's come to wish to protect. She would sleep easier if he did- and be someone entirely different as well.]